Today I told the man that I'm in love with that I was done. Not done with loving him...I don't know if that day will come, but done waiting and hoping and dreaming that one day things will be different. I'm done hoping that he'll magically one day change or better yet revert back to the person I fell in love with back when we first met; the man who was affectionate, attentive, open, encouraging, supportive, etc. That man despite the circumstances would be willing to steal a car to come see me when his car was out of commission. That man would call me even if he had only 1 minute before he had to be on stage just to hear my voice and tell me he was thinking about me. He's so drastically different from that person its hard to believe they used to be one in the same. I've tried to be a good friend. I've stood by his side and encouraged him when everyone else turned their back on him. So, yeah, I'm done. I thought I could continue to hold on and wait till he was ready to give of himself again, but I can't. I don't blame him...he never deceived me into thinking I'd get more than what I got. I just know that if I continue on this path I'm going to end up more heartbroken and down trodden than I already am.
Its a hard thing to finally accept the reality that someone doesn't love you the way you love them. I know now why they say to marry someone that loves you more than you love them.
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