See You at the Crossroads, Crossroads...

So, as of November 30th of this year I will have been am employee at my job for 4 years. My time here overall has been great for so many reasons that are not strictly vocational. I am not saying that I haven't learned anything because I have learned lots, but what I've gained most so far have been the relationships I have formed. For the most part I have truly enjoyed working at my job even with all its flaws and imperfections, which I figured just came with the territory since perfect jobs don't exist. As of late my enjoyment has been at an all time low. Thank God that I still have friends that work with me (in and out of my department) that keep me sane and help me keep it together. The source of my discontent with work is directly related with the recent change of my boss' employment status and hire of a new one, which seems pretty normal. I wish it was...that event was the beginning of a series of events that. The proverbial team has become crabs in a barrel with the new white woman we call boss standing outside the barrel with a stick pushing us back down if we get too far up. All in all its been almost a year since this nonsense has been escalating and with each day that goes by I feel like I am approaching stuckness. It's not all for naught though because it has me facing the harsh realities of where I am, where my life is headed and what I want to do with my life. Bottom line is I have dreams and goals and although for the last few years I felt that what I was doing aligned with where God was taking me. It was a stop on the journey we call destiny. I am not so sure anymore. Some of you may have heard that I have been considering my next life move and even contemplating either New York or Atlanta. Honestly, I don't know what my next step is which is jah scary, but I've gotten better with it. I remember my last semester of college being my most depressed time because I had no clue what I was going to do. The majority of my life from the time I was a little girl I thought I had my whole life planned out, but God had other plans. Thankfully I listened to Him and changed my major from pre-med (I used to want to be the next Ben Carson...I just knew I was going to be the head of neonatal surgery at John Hopkins Hospital.) That was a major crossroad for me and almost 5 years later I feel like I am approaching another one. It's time to kick my life in high gear but first I need God to program the GPS for me cuz I don't want to end up spinning my wheels and end up going no where. So, what to do next...

1) Contnue to pray, seek God and seek good counsel
2) Finish my vision board as a means to visualize what God has placed inside of me
3) Continue to learn as much as I can where I am and cherish the good things and the few good people that I work with.

PS. I believe that working with people you get along with and are competent make a huge difference in the overall work environment. I have been so very fortunate to find a best friend and sister in Crystal, a for real homie in Aaron, a good friend in Ayana (who recently relocated to ATL), and many more.

I hope that you all are so fortunate.

BTW this was partially inspired by a recent posting by Andreas Hale who was the former Executive Director of Music for BET.com. Check it out here if you haven't read it.